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Always borrow money from a pessimist. He won’t expect it back.”

-Oscar Wilde



Hey, No One, so y’all know that I love to give recommendations to y’all so today I wanted to recommend a few of my favorite podcasts that I like to listen to. I really haven’t been into podcasts for a very long time, but I definitely have my favorites now.

So in no particular order here are some of my favorite podcasts:

Forgive the fact that the majority of them are YouTubers, it’s such a huge part of my life that I really can’t ignore and it seeps into lots of other parts of my life.

-Hope xoxo


my beautiful friend, A, today at our lunch

Sick Thoughts

I am completely sick yet again. I feel like this a trend. About a month out from every concert with my band, I get horribly sick. It is so annoying. I literally spent all morning just laying around the house being miserable until I HAD to go to rehearsal.

While rehearsal was fun and I enjoyed myself there were two things that bothered me today. First was obviously that I feel like a piece of crap and my body wanted me to go home the second I got there. The second was I just felt uneasy. Maybe it was the sickness, but I felt uncomfortable with my band for the first time in a long time. I don’t know, I just wish people were more straight forward and direct with their thoughts. Not just my fellow band members, but just everyone in general.

We don’t speak our minds enough. I think people are too worried about hurting each other. And while I completely understand that side, I think it’s more detrimental to relationships to hold that shit in.

-Hope xoxo


Potential energy.

Prospect for a great future. Thinking of what could be instead of what is.

Kinetic energy.

Movement. Passion. Nothing can stop your momentum.


Happy. Energy.


I really pride myself on letting myself speak freely and openly on the Internet. I say what I mean and what I am thinking and I try not to edit myself too much.

My sister and I have made now two almost entirely unedited videos of us just talking for my VEDA series on my YouTube channel. Besides the spelling and grammar check, I don’t filter or rethink what I write on here.

I believe that if you don’t have anything nice to say then don’t say anything at all and I believe that THAT is the greatest filter there is.

What about you, No One? Do you edit yourself and your content that you put out onto the Internet? And I’m talking like finely editing videos or wording and rewording phrases for blogs or whatever. Let me know!

-Hope xoxo

my bass that I bought yesterday at Guitar Center :D

my bass that I bought yesterday at Guitar Center πŸ˜€

Know your own happiness. You want nothing but patience- or give it a more fascinating name, call it hope.”

-Jane Austen,Β Sense and Sensibility

The more I know of the world, the more I am convinced that I shall never see a man whom I can really love. I require so much!”

-Jane Austen,Β Sense and Sensibility

So What’s My Problem?

Alright, my No One, I’ve been thinking about what my fucking problem is with not posting regularly recently and I think I have it. I’ve been hit by a wave of lethargy and apathy towards a lot of things and trust me, it’s frustrating me as much as it must frustrate you to hear. I’m not entirely sure what I did to deserve these feelings, but I do know that they’re here and I’m praying that they go away soon. I blame my VEDA project. Trying to film, edit, and upload a video every day is tiring to say the least. Fun, yes. But tiring.

I can’t wait until April is over. VEDA will be done and school will be basically done and I’ll be back to my normal work schedule cuz let’s face it this whole spring camp shit is really fucking up my internal clock and my heart ‘cuz let’s face it. I miss my kids. Maybe that’s part of the problem.

I don’t know!

-Hope xoxo

i dont know

Oops I Did It Again

I did it again. I’m sorry, No One, I don’t know what’s going on with me and why I can’t get my shit together long enough to write a blog post every day. I’ll write another one tonight to make up for it like I did last time. I love you and thank you for being understanding. 

-Hope xoxo 


Rotating Doors

You know those fancy hotels that have the rotating doors that go in a circle? I feel like I’m perpetually stuck in one.

Moving constantly and seeing flashes of the life I want to be truly living every second of the day, but never quite getting there. Always being pushed along by the same damn thing – time.

Perfect timing is essential to those fucking doors. And my feet just can’t keep time with it. One minute I’m living my beautiful life with my extended family the next I’m home trying not to cry because I miss my sister so fucking much the next I’m playing YouTuber and making daily vlogs the next I’m at work and loving every second of my beautiful job the next I’m getting shit faced with Bobby beside me the next he’s leaving again the next Hannah’s home from her trip the next I’m in bed writing about it all.

I can’t seem to breathe or take a break. I just want a break, my No One, but on the same token I don’t want to stop any of it. I just want it all and I just want to be happy.