Monthly Archives: February 2015

Life is full of confusion. Confusion of love, passion, and romance. Confusion of family and friends. Confusion with life itself. What path we take, what turns we make. How we roll our dice.”

-Matthew Underwood

Good Evening, 2 A.M.

So I’ve had a weird fucking day. I found out the guy I THOUGHT I was going on a date with has a girlfriend (like WHAT), was late to work, had to stay late at work because a kid’s parents messed up, and then went and saw on of my band friends play a gig with another band that he’s in.

Like I said, weird fucking day. Not necessarily bad though. Sure disappointing on the cute barista front and it sucked that I had to stay later than usual, but I just spent the last six hours with some of my favorite people, listening to music, and having a good time. Had it not been for that last part of the day however, I probably would have been in such a bad mood. But right now I am a tad sour about the pitfalls of today, and more than anything, I am tired.

Goodnight, No One. Sorry today’s post was so late, but you should be happy that I was out, with friends, being a normal college age person!

-Hope xoxo


It’s not until you’re an adult you appreciate how awesome a dog is. Your dreams start dying, somebody cheats on ‘ya, bankers fuck up your 401k, ‘ya know? Then ‘ya come home and that dog’s looking at you and he’s like, ‘Dude, you’re awesome!’ It’s like No, dude you — you are fuckin’ awesome!”

-Bill Burr

Busy and Good Day

Today was (you guessed it) a busy and good day. Going to school all day was great and I learned a lot about parallaxes and Restoration period comedies which was awesome, but then right afterward I had to go to work which was again just fine just tiring.

But now I am happy and I have some alcohol running through my veins and Louis C. K. chattering away into my ears, so I really can’t complain.

But I am SO ready for tomorrow! Beach with barista, payday, movie day at work, and then one of my friend’s is performing tomorrow night so I’m gonna watch! And then on top of it all it is Bobby and Jon’s birthday! So hopefully I’ll get to talk to both of them which is wonderful and I’m so happy to be able to celebrate yet another year of being together with those two beautiful men in my life.

So yes, I’m just in a good mood, No One. Even if I’m really fucking tired.

-Hope xoxo

me right now though

me right now though

Babies should be classified as an antidepressant. It’s pretty hard to be in a bad mood around a 5-month-old baby.”

-Jim Gaffigan

Being Contracted

Today I got contracted at work, which is kind of a big deal at my work. A lot of people when they start working for the after school program come on as “Long term subs,” and people only graduate to “contracted” after they’ve proved they’re pretty good at their jobs. They’re guaranteed the same amount of hours as a part of a “contract” and it’s pretty fucking awesome!!

My boss honestly loves me which makes me feel great and my kids (although they’re kind of terrified of me) love me too which makes my day every fucking day.

Additionally today was awesome because I got to babysit the little kid that I’ve been watching since he was about four months (I babysat him on Sunday) and he was surprisingly good and happy to be with me. We read the Lorax and told each other about our days and he’s just turning into quite the little person and I love it as much as I love him.

Now, after a long day of running around at school and work, I’m sitting in bed, drinking tea, and listening to some music and I’m just in a good mood, No One.

-Hope xoxo

happy dance

Destiny is not something that happens all at once. It’s something that happens in retrospect.”

-John Green

Good Day

Today was honestly a good day, so instead of the usual rant I think I might just list all the good and awesome things that happened if that’s okay with you. Oh it’s not? Too fucking bad.

  • I got to sleep in
  • My hair and makeup was on fleek
  • I felt generally cute
  • I made friends and talked to people in my English class instead of not talking to anyone
  • The kids at work weren’t too bad today
  • I kinda got promoted in a way which is really bad ass
  • My coworker and I went out to frozen yogurt after work and listened to Ed Sheeran the whole fucking time
  • I got to wear a cute outfit to rehearsal
  • Rehearsal went well
  • My friends at the studio were really funny and were all in a good mood
  • I had a good dinner when I got home
  • My tea tasted delicious as usual today
  • And now I’m blogging, one of my favorite things, in bed

So yeah, today was a pretty fucking good day. I hope your day was awesome too, No One.

-Hope xoxo


Much unhappiness has come into the world because of bewilderment and things left unsaid.”

-Fyodor Dostoyevsky

In A Constant State of Confusion

As always, I seem to have found myself trapped in a state of confusion. Today I visited my favorite coffee shop after work to get some tea and relax after a long day and one of my friends/ baristas was working. We talked while I ordered my tea and he brought up going to the beach together. I’d messaged him a couple of weeks back via Instagram direct asking him if he’d like to go because I knew that he liked the beach and I was going by myself, so why not bring someone else, but I hadn’t really thought anything of it. He respectfully declined that time and asked for a rain check and today he brought it up out of the blue and asked if we could go. I said sure and we’re planning on going on Friday morning before we both have work.

Normal right?

It wasn’t until after my tea was steeping that he said, “What are you doing right now? Are you going anywhere?”

I responded no, because I wasn’t. I was planning on just sitting and enjoying my tea and some alone time, mind you. Then he said, “Okay, well I just got off. Why don’t you sit down and let’s catch up.”

I naturally obliged, mildly perplexed that he honestly wanted to sit down and chat with me, but then we did!

For like two fucking hours.

And the weirdest thing was I really enjoyed myself. He’s a really funny guy and pretty open once you get him going. We surprisingly have a lot in common and he’s just a delightful person to be around.

So we’re hanging out on Friday morning, but he wants to also hang out again either before or after that to watch the Die Hard series together because he was furious that I’ve never seen them and I honestly can’t wait, but at the same time I’m very confused. I can’t tell if I like this cracker just as a friend, as an individual, or as anything else. I guess I’ll find out in due time, but shit man I had a good fucking time tonight with him.

-Hope xoxo

im in a glass case of emotion